That is what I have to believe right now. I am usually an upbeat person. I try to look on the bright side. I try to be happy and live without regret because what is the point? But sometimes things happen, and I begin to wonder why. It’s been one of those weeks.
I have been waiting to write this post to find the words, and then today received more bad news and just figured why not. I’ve been kicked twice in the stomach the past week. The stories are long and drawn out so I will spare you all the details.
1. You know I SOLD my house, and am in the process of moving so that I could go for my dream of a shop. Well, one week ago, the space was leased. There is much more to the story that upsets me even more, but I am not going to get into those details. But just know that I have uprooted my entire family for a dream that is not happening any time soon. The feelings of guilt I had were atrocious. Chris was wonderful and asked me if I was going to be happy in our new town and home and location, and the answers were all yes, yes yes! I am so excited about the house and the area. So that trumped my sadness over the shop, and I moved on mentally. I was happily looking forward to moving in on Monday. Which leads me to the second kick….
2. I have found out today, that although our finances are all in order, because of the huge upheaval at Bank of America last week and all the job cuts, our lender had to push back closing one week. That may not seem like a big deal, and if we were allowed to preoccupy it might not be. But the seller seems to have a sister who is a realtor who has advised her she should never do pre-occupancy. And the seller’s agent is related to Godzilla. Or the Devil. Or both. Nasty. Mean. And unsympathetic at all. Unsympathetic to the fact that I have already scheduled getting my dogs back. Unsympathetic that I have already told Sawyer’s school he will be out Friday, and already called the new school to let them know he’d be there Tuesday. Unsympathetic to the fact that I have already enrolled both children in activities which start next week. Unsympathetic that we have already called our moving company, and who knows how much more this will cost us. Unsympathetic.
My agent is going to try her hardest tomorrow to convince them to let us preoccupy. I will keep you posted.
I do not usually write posts like this…. I really try to always be a positive and upbeat person. But bear with me. Right now, I am feeling beaten, defeated, and at an utter loss as to why all this is happening and what I am supposed to do.
Sorry- get back to the link party in the last post. I had to let you all know what was going on because you all have been so wonderful and supportive, and have asked me lots of questions. And I have avoided answering some because I didn’t know what to say to you. But I do believe in the power of positive thinking, and hoping you can all send positive vibes this way so we can get into that house on Monday and start our life out there. Thank you. Now back to Glee.