Anyone out there listen to country music? I like some of it- not all, but some. And the title of this post references a current hit by Jerrod Nieman. Here are some of the lyrics of this beautiful song…
Why’d you call me today with nothing new to say,
You pretend, it’s just hello
But you know what it does to me
To see your number on the phone.
I am fully aware that there is a possibility I shouldn’t be writing this post, but I share my life and myself with you all here, so I thought, why not? I am sending out this song to a special guy in my life, Mr. Nate Berkus. His people called my people me, and were considering me again for a story. I have never sent in an application- they found me through my blog somehow and contacted me both times, so it always gets my heart pumping. Yesterday I was told to basically pack my bags and get ready to leave Monday night to film Tuesday morning. But today I got a call saying they decided to go with a story that was more Hollywood glam. Do you hear that sound? That would be the sound of my heart breaking. Again. Melodramatic much, why not?
So right now, I am back from teaching my third class today (two muscle pumps, and one boot camp) and I am tired, and drained, and you better believe I am having some wine!!!!
Do I think they will call again? Honestly, I think there is a decent chance. But next time I won’t get my hopes up. I won’t celebrate prematurely. And I won’t lose any sleep wondering if I will get to go. I will keep my cool. And I will not be surprised if I don’t get to go for the third time in a row. And if I do ever get to be on the Nate show…. I will throw a big old viewing party and you all will be invited!!!
So moving on from heartache, on the plus side, I have beautiful children. I have an awesome husband. And I have a home that maybe wasn’t good enough this time, but maybe will be next time. And while there are so many people suffering loss in this world, I am not. If this is the worst thing that happened to me today, then guess what? I have it darn good. I am lucky. I love and I am loved. And you know what else? Today is NATIONAL HIGH FIVE DAY!!! So go take a walk around the neighborhood and share some high fives with your neighbors. Trust me, it will make you smile! (And thanks to Michelle at Ten June, I know that you should look at the person’s elbow and you will hit their hand every time during high fives!)
Happy High Five Day!
